May 2008 Archives

Last night I was lying on the couch and Jasmine came and curled up next to me.  This was really nice.  Jasmine loves to give hugs and likes to snuggle when she is about to go to sleep but when she is on the go, she is much more likely to say "Dad, wanna go play?".

During commercials, I would give her raspberries.  Not to feel left out, Alyssa - who was sitting on Jean's lap in the chair began to do raspberries too.  Everytime we would do one, she would do one.  Jean had to go upstairs to take care of something so while I was holding Alyssa, Jasmine came over and gave her hugs and told her "you are so cute".

Other than being under the weather - it was a great weekend :-D

Mmmkay - nuff said!

I am in the process of re-financing the house.  I did have a 30 year 5/1 ARM at 5.75 coming up for adjustment in June of 2010.  I am getting a 15 year 5.5 fixed.  It increases my monthly payment more than I would like - but over the course of the loan it will save me thousands in interest.  It is just stressful - and stress isn't what I need right now.

Yesterday (Mother's day), I let Jean sleep in until about 10.  I brought her and Jasmine breakfast in bed - nothing fancy, but a gesture.  We went and got some things at Wal-Mart that she wanted.  I convinced Jean to buy Jasmine a 13 inch TV with built in DVD player for the playroom.  This way when she needs a couple of hours during the day to herself - she can.  Today was the first day and so far so good.

Jean has started driver's education again.  Maryland's laws are very strict and she can't just go get her permit.  This means that twice a week, I have the girls from 6 to 9:15PM.  Alyssa is still breastfeeding and 9 is right around Jasmine's bed time so this could turn out to be fun.

Dear Lord - please help me to be a better father, husband, friend, man, and follower of Christ.

Last night I had two very memorable dreams.

The first had to do with a make-shift band that was playing down in the sewers.  It was comprised of people I went to high school with.  One of the band members (lead guitar) was missing.  The thing that makes this dream stand out is the music was original (not something I had heard before), very good (subjective I know but still), and contained mistakes (the level of detail was amazing).  You see, I am not a musically inclined person at all.  I am probably tone deaf, can't sing, and never really picked up any instrument.  In my dream though I each band member playing a different instrument - I could hear them together as well as individually during solos.  I could detect when they made mistakes.  The sound was amazing.  I don't think I could ever do that at the concious level.  The interesting thing was that the vocals were still terrible.

 

The second dream I had was set back in high school.  A teacher abruptly had to leave class because she had got word her father had suffered a heart attack and was in the hospital.  Later, when I arrived at her house to see how things were, she had just gotten word that he had passed.  She was full of anger and so I gave her a hug.  I can't express how deeply I felt empathy and sadness for her.  It was ineffible.  I did not want to let go.  This feeling was so overwhelming.   This dream was odd to me for a number of reasons.  I was not particularly close to this teacher.  I don't know who their father was/is.  I am normally an emotionally flat person not feeling much of anything.

 

I think perhaps I was letting go of something in the second dream.  I don't know what, but I woke up feeling lighter.

 

God is great